For the longest time I've had this...I'd call it and obsession...with Heaven and Hell. The afterlife in general, with a particular interest in Hell.

This may have started when I was just a kid, back when my family used to go to church. For some perverse reason I've never been able to pinpoint, The one book of the Bible I was actually interested in reading or hearing about was Revelations. It had to be all the graphic and grandiose imagery. How can you not find seven-headed beasts and seas of blood cool when you're seven or eight? You're naive, all you think is "Wow, that's weird!", with no knowledge of it's meaning or implications. You just take it at face value.

Of course, since my dawn of reasoning, I sometimes regret ever having peeked at that particular book. Had I known I'd be prone to anxiety and paranoia later in life, I would have steered clear of all that. But ever since then, I've been enamored with the horrid beauty of Hell and, at times, the wide majesty of Heaven. Both as ideas, mind you. When I consider the infinite nature of the universe, I find it hard to believe such specific places exists (though I sometimes succumb to fits of doubt). That's not to say I don't believe in God, or a God of some sort. But that's a whole other monologue.

I've just always found the afterlife to be so surreal and full of creative potential. That's why when ever I'm inclined to write something creative, it seems to have some tie to life, death, or the afterlife. I don't really consider this a bad thing, just one of those interesting things you notice about yourself. If I truly believed in astrology, I would just pass it off as my Scorpio nature, but astrology is really just more of a diversion really. Like a game.

Getting off tangent again.

Actually...I think that's all I have to say for now.

Well then, I'll conclude by saying that this sake I'm drinking right now is delicious. I've taken quite a liking to it. It's Nigori Genshu, Murai Family, in case you're interested.

Tags: afterlife, pondering, thoughts
Current Mood: slightly buzzed
Current Music: The Flaming Lips - "Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots Pt.1"